When I meet people I am always smiling, laughing and joking because who wants to hear about my problems? I surely do not want to hear about theirs. I am the proverbial “crying clown” that people do not see. They do not know what roads of pain I have traveled or the sacrifices I habe made.
I do not dump my load of crap on others because they generally can’t deal with what a mess their own lives are and they do not care. I am a very strong woman but what good is that in itself as others think you do not need anyone, you do not feel, you do not get overwhelmed.
I wake up and look out the sliding glass door and I am instantly overwhelmed because there is so much to do and I never know where to begin. I just need some affection as I am like a puppy and thrive on love as most people do.